Interpretation of the Cabaret Dream

Peacock Eyelashes: Reference to the Anguished Peacock (see previous blog)
Vanessa: will remain anonymous---she knows who she is
The hour missed: Vanessa’s Childhood
The green silk dress: real dress worn at a real wedding; see video of the wedding of family member 1989
Vanessa’s age in the dream was 8, but in reality she would have been 5 years old.
The Cabaret itself carries a hint of a sad burlesque and in the language of my dream it represents the stripping away of all the layers of hurt, the regret, and grieving over devastated relationships in order to heal.
No shoes: or deciding to go barefooted: tenderfoot. The beginning of a risky process: Deciding to be honest and open with Vanessa even though I don’t feel completely prepared or self-assured. I feel like a novice, inexperienced and ill equipped for the task ahead of me, but driven by love and fueled by hope.
Cabaret Theme: The musical, which was based on a play, which was based on a novel about Nazi Germany: I believe this represents the fact that in reality we were all prisoners of our circumstances and had to endure many horrors; part of the horror was seeing our loved ones suffer at the hands of an abusive tyrant. The tyrant was Fate, specifically the fate of being sucked into a stream of events I had so hoped to avoid.
The Audience: A place to sit and listen and watch; a place to be quiet in order to see the whole show before applauding, or weeping while I applaud.